I want to run away to some far-off land. The land of the unknown is more alluring than living amongst the known.

Life is a constant battle; they say you win some, you lose some. But the more I lost, the more clarity I got. I can now see what is unacceptable and what I should walk away from!

I have complained so much in my mind, if today you ask me, what’s wrong?, I will say, “Nothing! Absolutely, nothing!”. I will walk away from thoughts that spring up to say, “Is this right?”. I don’t want to dredge up any more of what’s gone, good or bad.

Memories are bittersweet; they bring both happiness and sadness. But, I choose to walk away from both. The memories I thought I had created were never there; they were just figments of my imagination of “what could have been!”
I want to be free of misgivings and expectations. I want to be free of hope that things will change. Why am I holding on to hope when there is none? Why do I expect things to change when the change is not in my control?

Yes, I want to run away and run away to some far-off land, but not with the weight of these thoughts. These weights will slow me down; they will make me look back. I need to shed them before I walk away. To the new land, I bring nothing, no happiness or sadness. I will be as I am, and I hope to survive!